Naw, just kidding...
I’ve never been good with prayers…by that I mean, I’m not sure that I exactly know what I’m doing when I pray.
Sure, I used to ask for stuff: health, safety, etc. for myself and for friends and family.
But that started to feel…I don’t know, silly in a way.
More less, sure I don’t want friends and family to suffer, but I’m also asking for their health and safety for selfish reason as well.
I still do on occasion, but I’ve turned toward a few things with my prayers (such as they are.)
1) Being thankful what I have and have been given. Blessing of all sorts, from health, safety, financial, and of course friends and family!
2) How I can help others, or to use my blessings to bless others.
3) Guidance in various areas that I feel need help.
Then the issue becomes…HOW does one pray.
Kneel?
Close the eyes?
Raise hands in the air?
The best way that I feel I pray is writing it down. Like a letter to God. All other ways don’t give me the same feeling…though I figure God already knows.
Sometimes I just talk to him too…
Then there are times when no prayer seems right, so I pray The Lord’s Prayer, sometimes a few times in a row…
But I think that the problems is: I think it should be harder, more complicated, than it is…no sacrifice is required, no priest, no action, no nothing…God knows my heart, God knows what’s on my mind, what I am seeking, I just need to relax and be…and talk…pray…or write…
One of the characters (a black maid) in the book we talked about earlier, always wrote out her prayers. I think prayer is simply communication between me and God; sometimes I pray quietly, sometimes I scream and sometimes I write things out very logically. We talk in different ways and it's all prayer.
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